Ever since I had a nightmare about the affair situation, all the bad thoughts or bad memories I try to delete had all come back, what should I do about it?

I really feel very trouble right now, as all this while I trying to cope with everything, I got two precious daughters, a wonderful husband, what else?

Why this nightmare had to come and distrub my life?  I mean seriously, i don’t know, all i hope is that just go away…

Dear All,

I really haven’t update my blog for so long, and guess what, I ‘m pregnant with my 3rd baby…

I wonder that am I suffering depression?

I don’t know…When I’m working, I feel normal…I able to work, to chat normally and this and that…

When I reach home, I suddenly feel very sad…I sometimes don’t really want to touch my girls…

Help!

How do you feel when being sold out by relatives?

How do you feel when being threaten by relatives?

I feel pain, angry, shocked and sad…

What happen? After being a nice person, then only know that just being a fool for helping, to them, i just a stupid asshole that so dumb and stupitidy to help…

Ever thinking on getting even? Yes, I do, whenever i had time, i will plan… Just a time that will make me grew stronger…

Each day i grew stronger and stronger, and it is time …

Real busy lately,  till i had no time for others things… I busy with my schedule, as a personal assistant to managing director, its fun… get to see new things…travel…meet important people, most important part, get to learn new things, i won’t want a job that is so boring till everyday repeat the same thing again and again all my life…

Sometimes…

it is hard to speak to some people, people who thought she is miss-know-all, but actually know-nothing-at-all… Try to act like she is miss nice lady(but to gents only), to others who may be a thread to her, she’s such a pain… to avoid to talk to her, but there is sometimes unavoidable to speak to her… Damn it

I don’t know if i had stepped on others people tail or i had think too much, my supervisor treat me a bit badly. At first, I thought I did something wrong, so I ask her directly, if I had offended her in anyway, I say I m sorry, she told me there is nothing and I didn’t offended her.

Then, a few day later, I ask her something regards about my task, if she had see any of the file, she is like so damn mad and this and that. Then, for the past week, if i talk to her about something, don’t care what it is, she is will be give me the response ” there is none of my business”, ” i don’t know” but if others talk with her, she will be laughing or whatever.

Like this morning, Ikan talk with her and then she is smilling, but when I try to ask her about something, her expression turns and say i don’t know. Bullshit… There is some duplicate invoice where I would to check if we had key in extra or not, then she will say it is my mistake. Come on, what’s is her problem man? It is just a double check, afraid that the supplier bill us twice. And it is sound like my business.My bad. What kind of people is this.

I wonder what had happen?