mom talks

Ever since I had a nightmare about the affair situation, all the bad thoughts or bad memories I try to delete had all come back, what should I do about it?

I really feel very trouble right now, as all this while I trying to cope with everything, I got two precious daughters, a wonderful husband, what else?

Why this nightmare had to come and distrub my life?  I mean seriously, i don’t know, all i hope is that just go away…

I wonder that am I suffering depression?

I don’t know…When I’m working, I feel normal…I able to work, to chat normally and this and that…

When I reach home, I suddenly feel very sad…I sometimes don’t really want to touch my girls…

Help!

Real busy lately,  till i had no time for others things… I busy with my schedule, as a personal assistant to managing director, its fun… get to see new things…travel…meet important people, most important part, get to learn new things, i won’t want a job that is so boring till everyday repeat the same thing again and again all my life…

I don’t know if i had stepped on others people tail or i had think too much, my supervisor treat me a bit badly. At first, I thought I did something wrong, so I ask her directly, if I had offended her in anyway, I say I m sorry, she told me there is nothing and I didn’t offended her.

Then, a few day later, I ask her something regards about my task, if she had see any of the file, she is like so damn mad and this and that. Then, for the past week, if i talk to her about something, don’t care what it is, she is will be give me the response ” there is none of my business”, ” i don’t know” but if others talk with her, she will be laughing or whatever.

Like this morning, Ikan talk with her and then she is smilling, but when I try to ask her about something, her expression turns and say i don’t know. Bullshit… There is some duplicate invoice where I would to check if we had key in extra or not, then she will say it is my mistake. Come on, what’s is her problem man? It is just a double check, afraid that the supplier bill us twice. And it is sound like my business.My bad. What kind of people is this.

I wonder what had happen?

been quite busy lately… there’s been a rush in my life, just change a new enviroment, a new nanny, my aunt drop sick, another aunt need to do chemotheraphy, and then something mix up with my job and sos so…

why i blog? there is some reason:

…i can talk what i want here.

…to tell out the trouble that happen and may in real lifes i can’t talk about it.

…i may not know you and you don’t know me.

…and there is someone call melysa lum exsist in this place called Earth.

…and this is the things that is really had happen to me and it makes me never forget what had happen.

…and it always remind me of what is called payback time.

wow, missing my blog so much… been busy recently catching up new task, i had started a new job and there a alot of new things for me to catch up with, now i finally sneak out some time to drop my blog a few words…

i’m getting to like my new job…wish me luck to keep on…

after two months of leave, i’m finally back to my blog…

there is so much to write about, my confinment, my maternity leaves at home, taking care of my little sabrina, struggling how to breastfeed… there is too much…

plus, i’m trying to catching up things where i miss for the past two months…i think i need time to categorized my list, so that i can update more about me…