My TGIF celebration

this is for my farewell celebration, so i get to go to TGIF, haha…
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my main course…yum yum
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My New Year Target

Since Sabrina birth, I been planning all kind of new year target to try to achieve before the end of this year. Some of them had been carried forward last year, 2007. It’s not I can’t do it, is because I am pregnant.

1. Travel to Korea again/ Hong Kong Disneyland. (Need to save the money for my hospital) so carry forward to 2009. This is because have to wait until Sabrina can walk.

2. Look for a job that has higher pay. (Can’t switch jobs during pregnancy is bacause i will lose my maternity leave, and there is no employer willing to take someone pregnant in) This one is achieved, shorthly after my confinement, I found one job which pay is higher and which is nearer to home. ACHIEVED

3. Get back to college. Finish my degree.

4. Get a House (Either Terrace or Apartment) Already found the perfect location but still looking for the budgeted price.

5. To slim down. Actually, is just the tummy part only. I can’t put on those nice clothes I used to had.(Tight one) So would like to go back to 45kg.

That is my personal things, and then for all my friends out there, hope you guys get what you wish for, my family members all stay healthy…

EVERYONE, DREAMS Does COME TRUE! JUST BELIEVE….

They want me to get Pregnant again!!!

This chinese new year, we went back to Ipoh to visited Kane’s family and relatives…

Also distributed ang pows for children and my girls collected ang pows…

And then listens to stupid comments again… So Boring!!!

Kane’s auntie ( 伯母) keep on asking me when am I going to give birth again to another baby boy to add the family brooth. Then, my Mom-in-law added in and say,” yalor yalor, two girls not enough one, must add some more one…..”

Kane then say maybe sometime later, but not now… As we both still struggle to take care of two daugthers and also keep our careers stay at the top, wait till the girls are school and then we then only think about adding another one… But both of the ladies are aiming at me, babies must give birth when you are young, so you will be able to take care of them…or girls not supposed to work one lah, must stay at home to take care of children… BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH…

At the entire conversation, I’ve been keeping quiet because I don’t want to start a fight, and others cleverly keeping quiet and not to interfere with this… OK… since you two not going to keep quiet and keep on shooting at me, you asked for it…

” Ah Ma, if you going to give me money monthly to raise my kids then i considered to give birth again, but remember  plus my salary also as you requested me to stay at home one wor… if Kane ask me to stay then he give me salary, but now you requested me to stay at home then you paid me salary as i take care your grandchildren…And the salary better not less than what i have now…”

Then Kane  伯母 quickly changed and said nowdays are hard to stay at home as things are expensive and it is expensive to raise a kid BLAH BLAH, she is lucky that she changes quick, if not, she also get from me…

Then she quickly walked out the living room with my MIL towards the dining room…HAHA… This is called PLEASE RESPECT OTHERS…

When am I going to give birth again or not this question is going to be with me and Kane, not you two auntie to worried…We had our own plan to live with and you two are not counted a part in it, so when next time be smart when ask me the question when are you going to get pregnant again?

or you going to get bullets from me… Haha ( this question only Kane side are not allowed to ask, cause it make me get cross each time i heard it, it come with insulting, so only them are forbid to ask) Hehe… others are welcome…

Sabrina Yeap Lee Ern

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Sorry ya…waited for so long for her…

Finally…

depression…

after i give birth to my second child, i m struggling how to breastfeed her, and then try to take care of Carmen, and try to avoid some visitors…hai…my in-laws!!!

Actually not all of them are that bad, is just that words that spilled from their mouth makes you want to kill them only…

this is all because of my mom-in-law and my kane’s sister… my mom-in-law makes me mad is because she started to commented about both of my daugthers and trying to stop me from breastfeed, because she said i’m making Sabrina sick (jaudice, where usually new-born get it), and trying to make Carmen eats all kinds of food where children belows three is not advised to eat…

my sis-in-law, fun… is the most brainless of all, is like making a fuss, trying to made me and kane fight again regards our daugthers wellfare…

Been trying to invisble to them, avoiding to get all kind of attacks, but it seems that nothing works…

I cries often after their visit, nothing could cheer me up at that particular time, i think about a week or two, even carmen learning to talk or playing i cries…

One night, i dreamed that carmen and sabrina grew up in Ipoh, in their house, they became selfish, all the attitudes that they had. I woke up in a sudden that i realise the only way my babies won’t get near them is when I’m stand tough to protect them. Away from them.

You may say forget it, of what they had done, forgive them, or i am so cruel to them. Or no matter how, they are part of my family. For me, no, there is no turning back for me… After of what they did to me, my daugthers… they should know the consequences…

I never get cross with anyone until the hatred is so deep, that I could never forget what had happen all this while..

Till now, sometimes i will still cries over small things and worry about many things…

please PRAY THAT I m ok, I don’t want to get into depression…

HELP!!!

find my baby’s talent

kids nowday are somethings special…

where babies sometimes show you the things that you never imagine that they could do or somethings that is not happen during your time as kids…

sisters…

there are things that we were worried during my pregnant with sabrina, will carmen be jealous?

Things show that there is abit of jealousy, but not much…Carmen show more love towards her little sister, Sabrina… When we brought sabrina home, carmen came forward to kiss sabrina… THEN….

Every once a while carmen wanted to kiss sabrina, or look at her quietly beside sabrina’s moses basket. If sabrina cries, Carmen is the 1st person who will stand by her basket (during the day) and try to comfort sabrina with her baby talk, suprisingly, sabrina actually listens to carmen… I guess this is the communication between babies…

Now all i ever wish is both of my daughters grow up happily together and help each others in everyway they could. My babies, you two are the most wonderful things that mommy ever had…

I Love You two, Carmen and Sabrina!!! 

Love…

Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. Don’t cry over anyone who won’t cry over for you. Good Friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget. Don’t let the past hold you back, you’re missing the good stuff. Best Friends are the siblings God forgot to give us. When it hurts to look back, and you’re scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and you best friend will be there.

Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.

Remember, every minutes spent angry is sixty seconds of hapiness wasted.

Men Are Hard To Please!!!

ladies, read carefully…

gents, think about it…

(I don’t remeber where I get this article, but i would share it with everyone)

The problems is with guys:

If you treat him nicely, he say you are in love with him; if you don’t he says you’re proud.

If you dress nicely, he say you are trying to lure him; if you don’t, he says you are from kampung.

If you argue with him, he says you are stubborn; if you keep quiet, he says you have no brains.

If you are smarter than him, he’ll lose face; if’s smarter than you, he is great.

If you don’t love him, he tries to posses you; if you love him, he will try to leave you.

If you don’t make love with him, he says you don’t love him; if you do, he says you are cheap.

If you tell him your problem, he says you are troublesome; if you don’t, he says that you don’t trust him.

If you scold him, you are like a nanny to him; if he scolds you, it is because he cares for you.

If you break your promise, you cannot be trusted; if he breaks his, he is forced to do so.

If you smoke, you are a bad girl; if he smokes, he is gentleman.

If you do well in your exams, he says it’s luck; if he does well, it’s brain.

If you hurt him, you are cruel; if he hurts you, you are too sensitive!!!

So hard to please!!!

I swear when guys read this will say it’s not true, but i don’t post it here, they will say I’m selfish….

SIGH……………..